I almost feel guilty posting some of this stuff. But, to skip over it, or make out like it never happened, would leave a hole in the narrative of this blog and that would feel wrong to me.
Part of the process of “seeing my way back” to photography has been to look back through every single post on this blog. I’ve re-read every one, word for word. The same with the comments section. I may at times have felt the urge to re-edit some of my images but I can honestly say I didn’t have that same reaction to anything I’d written. In actual fact, I did find something unexpected in the comments, something that had previously gone unnoticed. For every person that made a comment on an image, there was another that enjoyed the writing equally as much. Most pertinent for me was the number of times people mentioned that they appreciated the honesty of my writing and I really want to remain true to that going forward, for better or worse.
So, the trip to the Mahia Peninsular with the New Wotancraft Commander rekindled the tiniest of sparks in my enthusiasm for photography. In turn, this caused me to reflect on ways I could potentially move forward again - HERE.
Fast forward a couple of weeks and I’m house hunting in Wellington. I am literally wandering random streets in an effort to improve my knowledge of certain suburbs. Then, out of the blue I’m confronted by a building facade that I’m almost certain I recognise, from somewhere. My instincts prove to be correct and it transpires that the building in question is the workshop of Wellington Photographer Andrew Ross. A building I’ve only ever seen in an online video, years earlier. I re-watch that video and can’t help but feel inspired by it. Watch it for yourself - HERE
I mentioned in a previous post that I’ve not thought about my photography for quite some time. As a direct consequence of my own situation I have quite literally ignored the photography of others. With my interest piqued I began to look around online and see what was happening, what better place to start than youtube…..
I’ve watched a lot of stuff and to be honest a lot of it is good, but some of it is great. I want to mention three channels that have really helped me to build on this delicate foundation.
This was literally this first thing I found when I searched analogue photography and I absolutely lapped it up. I must be the last film shooter on earth to discover this channel!!!!! A testament to how photographically withdrawn I had been. To see these young fella’s doing something they are passionate about and doing it in such an honest and raw way is both refreshing and contagious. Ironically, the posts look to be drying up as I write this, I really hope that it continues in some form.
In truth, I’d bookmarked this channel before I stopped making photographs, I think there was maybe three or four videos at the time. At some point, while I’d been away, Sean had worked out his niche and he’s done it quite brilliantly. The videos are slick and polished, the content is entertaining and informative. But, that’s not really why I watched it. This guy is a fantastic orator and communicator, he clearly understands that inside almost every photographer there is a battle going on and in some it can almost feel like a fight to the death. His insights into the “mental wellbeing” side of photography and life are littered throughout his uploads and I find them thoroughly insightful and reassuring.
Hands down my favourite thing to watch on youtube or anywhere else for that matter. This guy is the real deal, talented, insightful, methodical, thoughtful and funny. Nick’s little road-trips reminded me just how much I used to enjoy getting away with the camera. He generously shares his knowledge and experiences. Beyond that I absolutely love his process and the results speak for themselves.
No one thing has lead me back to photography, instead a fragile chain of events has re-kindled a flame that hadn’t died but was certainly barely alight.
I’ve come to realise that for every excuse I come up with not to pick up a camera there will always be more reasons to pick one up.
Lastly, I chose to remind myself of the memories I’d have missed out on if I’d never picked up a camera, those moments with family and friends that would have been lost forever.
All of the above, various films, various cameras.
Hell, I’m even reminded how wonderful the colours are in the Leica M9 JPG’s!!! Thank goodness I kept it.
Thanks for reading.